So I've gone a bit off piste today. I KNOW! The danger! You all know by now that I'm trying to write my blog piece all in one go as a kind of homework in preparation for going back to work right? What do you mean no? I've been banging on about it for weeks. Fucks sake - go back and catch up! ANYWAY, I decided this morning that I'd use that time, not to write a general blog post but to do something that I've been meaning to for ages.... write the About Me bit on the website.
The ups and downs... its been a tough one these last 24 hours.
You know that thing where you know you want it but you know it's filthy? It's nothing to do with that. Acht, just read it. G'Wan.
Friday the 10th of August 2018 Experiment day 2 - time started 8.51am Welcome to my office! Come in, sit down, take a load off. Firstly let me introduce myself, my name is Sarah, I will be your hostess for today. I am 37 years young, GSOH, enjoy food, swearing, sleeping and no walks in … Continue reading Horseshit; part 2
Thursday 9th August 2018 Hnnnnnnnnnnnhghhhhhh...Fuuuuuuck. Oh! It's working! Hooray!!!!!! Hello world, this is brain. Brain, this is what it feels like to function. HELLO EVERYONE. So, it's been over a week since I wrote to you all and that's becoming more and more of a "thing" now - which is depressing. When I first started … Continue reading Cutlery Obsession, Trains and OUT OUT
Wednesday 1st of August 2018 The 1st of August.... How has that happened? I vividly remember writing on the 1st of May and then the 1st of June about how I was going to make them "my month" - what a crock of shit that turned out to be. Karma clearly heard me, laughed and … Continue reading New month, new dreams…. or new bullshit? ❤️🤞💩🤥
Sunday 29th July 2018 Fucking raining innit? Now I know some of you will be rejoicing; out there with your saggy knockers swinging back and forward between your toes, and others will be cursing the lack of sun but well, I've got mixed views on it all if I'm honest. My inner pensioner is delighted … Continue reading Butterfly meltdowns, new friends and insomnia ❤️
Thursday the 26th of July 2018 Well... I feel a bit of a tit to be honest. There was me banging on and on about this assessment, being all Kevin about it and actually.... it turned out to be fine. More than fine actually. It turned out to be hugely helpful. I was scheduled to … Continue reading Blue Peter badge 🔵💙
Wednesday the 25th July 2018 Ahhhhhhhhhhhh Wednesday, it's like my very own mini break is a Wednesday. There's no child. There's no routine. There's no pressure to be anywhere, talk to anyone or get out of bed if I don't need to. Just was well really because it's 10.55am and I'm sat in bed with … Continue reading Freedommmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Tuesday the 24th July 2018 Right then it's Tuesday. It's a shitty point in the week is Tuesday aint it? It's not quite the beginning of the week anymore; Monday's already pebble dashed all over your hopes and dreams of a positive week, and it's nowhere near the end of the week so you can't … Continue reading A trickle of piss & a dash of rage
Monday the 23rd of July 2018 Blimey, I've missed you crowd. Yes, even you, sat there with your mouth puckered like a cats arsehole judging me for fucking off and leaving you with this lot. They're not so bad, you just need to be less.... you, and more me. Suck it up. Fuck it. I … Continue reading Thank fuck my curtains are closed.
Friday the 13th of July 2018 Fuck me, I hadn't realised until I typed the date out that it was actually Friday the 13th. Well I fucking never. I mean, Jason V hasn't even text far less shown up? Eeeesht he's changed. I guess given the fact I'm half way through the day and I've … Continue reading Friday the 13th, CBD hopes and family time ❤️👨👩👦
Thursday the 12th of July 2018 *Tut* 4 days. That's how long I've been gone.....4 fucking days, and look what you've done to the place! BoJo's all Eye of the Tiger about kicking Terrahawk May to the curb, the footballists taxi for "home" got lost and is now en-route to Croatia and Trump's coming to … Continue reading Caution: Contains themes of arseholery and rantage (again)
Sunday the 8th of July 2018 Blimey, it's scorchio out there. Well for here anyway, it's 26 degrees. All of the men in the village have been raped of their shirts and as a result I've seen enough pale blue legs and big flabby moobs to last me a life time. Scottish blokes are not … Continue reading Scorchio, camel cock pie and .. scenery
Friday the 6th of July 2018 Well fuck me.... what a week. Seriously, I know I've said that before but just wait till I tell you what's been going on. Tuesday was the last blog update... fucking Tuesday and I thought that the next time I flipped the laptop open read to write I'd be … Continue reading A very bad trip…..
Tuesday the 3rd of July 2018 Thank fuck, I made it, it's the end of Tuesday... it's taken AGES to arrive. It's been an utterly strange and depressing few days, so I'll apologise now because I suspect this will be all over the place. In some ways I've made headway in treatment, but I've taken … Continue reading Bigger Boy Pills, Jekyll and Hyde and sunshine 🌞
Sunday the 1st of July 2018 The 1st of July? How the actual fuck has that happened? I remember writing the blog post for the 1st of June and thinking "aye this'll be it, the month that it all turns around", June can't be as bad as May was and in some ways I wasn't … Continue reading Swings, Roundabouts and…. lock jaw
Thursday the 28th June 2018 Blimey, Thursday already and it's an absolute belter out there. I was sat out in the garden for a bit earlier this morning but it got way too hot and rather than having a lovely warming heat on my bones I felt my bone marrow was on actual fire so … Continue reading Boudoirs, ugly genitals and burny hot
Tuesday the 26th of June 2018 I'll level with you - I nearly didn't write again today. Don't get me wrong, I love writing but it kind of feels like a pressure some days; a pressure I've added to life purely through choice I might add. I've gotten used to opening the laptop, or the … Continue reading Friends, haircuts and no fucking chair!
Sunday the 24th of June 2018 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY D! Well, what a thoroughly fucking lovely weekend I've had. OK you funny fucker, pick yourself up the floor, I know you weren't expecting that but I'm not always a miserable twat. Honestly, I've had a right nice couple of days with our Christiaan and Eli … Continue reading Glorious❤️
Friday the 22nd of June 2018 Right then, we all made it to Friday hooooray, well done etc etc! Now, I don't want to completely destroy the equilibrium of the universe, but there will be no burgers today. Well no porky bastards anyway. Yes, I know it's fucking Friday, I just said that, but I'm … Continue reading Orange Walks, Epsom Salt and fucking with Burger Friday
Thursday the 21st of June 2018 All those in favour of renaming the blog "Not doing very much at all really" raise your hands now. 🙋♀️🙋♂️🤷♀️🤦♀️ That is, if it doesn't knacker you - blink if that's easier. Not too much mind, or you'll look special and not in a good way. I tell you what, I'm … Continue reading Doing nothing, debates and very shameful rides
Tuesday the 19th of June 2018 Well bugger me backwards and call me Phyllis, I've made it back again. That's two days on the trot people - I'll soon be kicking JK Rowling in the arse as I'm passing her by. Harry Potter my fucking arse, get a real job. So, it's Tuesday, the day … Continue reading Toddlers, Carpets and not faking it.
Monday the 18th of June 2018 It's been 4 days since I've been able to put words in the right order. Can you believe it? 4 fucking days. That's why I've not been around much. I could talk for the most part, but my brain was so tired I wasn't capable of writing a sentence … Continue reading Went a bit AWOL didn’t I?
Thursday the 14th June 2018 Fuck me it's windy out there, like REALLY windy. We've had a few casualties in the garden; the wee plasticky greenhouse that I've no long since bought and planted up with pride blew like a leaf across the garden earlier; twice. It slammed against the garage wall with a right … Continue reading Windy broken bits
Wednesday the 13th of June 2018 I'm sat in my very quiet serene lounge and to be honest I was enjoying the peace until i rI realised that I could hear birds shouting at each other. No, it's not delicate wee tweets, it's full blown "HOI MARGARET, GET YER WASHING IN DOLL, THE RAINS ON … Continue reading Fucks Sake Seamus
Tuesday the 12th of June 2018 What a fucking day.....No don't worry, it's not one of THOSE posts. I've caught a bus and THEN flagged a taxi to take me away from the pity party that's dominated me this last wee while. Nah, today I'm undoubtedly fucked, but I'm in good humour so you're safe. … Continue reading OAP grafters and unreasonable goblins
Monday the 11th June 2018 I bunked off yesterday... again... but it's alright, there was no major drama, we were just out enjoying the sunshine in the garden and I chose not to write rather than not being able to write. I think I might need to give myself a bit of a break when it … Continue reading Good Knight/Bad night
Saturday the 9th of June 2018 Firstly, sorry for being a moany fucker yesterday and before you all start trying to make me feel less of a moany fucker by proclaiming "you weren't..HONESTLY... and EVEN if you were it's TOTALLY understandable" - don't. I was. I appreciate you trying to make me feel better about … Continue reading Living for the weekends ❤️
Friday the 8th of June 2018 What a fucking week - I'm battle weary that's for sure. I'm not sure if you were ever a battler at school? I wasn't really; I grew out of my fighting days just as I went into high school (around age 11 for you English lot that don't know … Continue reading Where’s my violin?
Wednesday 6th of June 2018 Well, today is better than yesterday so that's good news innit? I mean I didn't skip out of bed to Katrina and the Waves first thing this morning, but I didn't have to check my own pulse to see if I was still alive either; so that's progress. It was … Continue reading Big Boy Bed, Windows and Morrison’s
Get ready for loads of moaning and swearing... the inevitable has happened.
Monday 4th June 2018 Ahh hello you. Thanks for dropping in and reading, I'm always grateful you take the time. So firstly, yesterday. Nothing bad happened, actually, it was a fine day; it was just busy for me so firstly I didn't get a chance to write all day and secondly, by the time I … Continue reading Life, Cheese and fucking Trolls
Saturday the 2nd of June 2018 I KNEW that June wasn't as much of an arsehole as May was. She couldn't be. Not when she brings with her long days and sunshine and here we are on her second day and you know what? It's been alright! Actually, some bits of it have been really … Continue reading Bouncy pillows of fun, farm shops and dinosaurs
Friday the 1st of June 2018 - IT'S NOT A MOANY ONE HONEST. I think June and I are going to get on alright to be honest. She's come in like a breath of fresh air this morning, kicked May squarely in the flaps and sent her packing. I think she understands what I always … Continue reading June has arrived, May is an arsehole and that’s all there is to it.
Thursday the 31st May 2018 It's been a right odd day to be honest. I'd planned to try and get myself out for an hour this morning having stayed in yesterday but it's not quite worked out like that.... never does does it? I'm SURE someone somewhere hears what I'm planning, snorts and says "aye … Continue reading It’s all gone to shit
Wednesday the 30th of May 2018 It's happening more and more isn't it? Me, missing a day of writing... eeesht, I'm treating this hobby like a holiday camp, swinging in and out when I feel like it. When the going got tough, well, I fucked off didn't I? Sorry, or you're welcome, whichever fits best … Continue reading Own goals, old friends and a bit of self pity
Monday the 28th of May 2018 It's happened. I've become middle aged. I mean, I've known it was coming for a while what with my growing adoration for elasticated clothing and comfy footwear but I thought it would be a slow and graceful evolution rather than what turned out to be a very disappointing wet … Continue reading Pansies, Best friends and more sitting down
Sunday the 27th of May 2018 I tell you what, I'll do well if I manage to get to my normal few thousand words today because I've done literally fuck alllll day. Not because of any overly dramatic reason to be fair, I mean I'm shit but I'm not at deaths door, it's just the … Continue reading A day of rest, family and abortion rights
Saturday the 26th of May 2018 Private Mellars reporting for duty.... aaaaaaaateeeeeeeeenshunnnnnnnnnnnnn etc. etc. Firstly, sorry for missing last night. No, no, relaaaaaax, we weren't meant to be meeting at that seedy bar again, I mean for not writing. Those that follow the Facebook page clearly had an explanation (also sad face pics) but I … Continue reading Joggists, tantrums and a weird bruise….